Thursday, April 30, 2009

Grandpa

This morning I was out running errands with my girls and Costco was on our list. I always think of my Grandpa when we go to Costco. Remembering buying bulk candy with him and being super embarrassed at the number of trips he'd take to the same free sample lady.

So, the usual sequence of thoughts happened and I ended up crying in the car. Thinking about him not getting to meet Matea. Thinking about how much fun he would have listening to Bella's crazy imagination. In general, wallowing in my sorrow.

It may sound weird, but I kept thinking to myself, "I need to feel him with me today". More than a year after he died, I accidentally called his cell phone number instead of Grandma's. Imagine my shock when I heard his voice on the outgoing message. I called back two more times and listened to it before I realized that Grandma would see how many times I had called. I really wanted to call again this morning but I exercised self restraint.

We made it home and I went about my day but still in a bit of a funk. Just a few minutes ago, I was cleaning up the play area, walking back and forth, carrying toys to their appropriate place. I looked over and saw it...

He was with me today. This picture is from a "Who Loves Baby Book?" my mom gave Bella when she was born. I think I'm going to leave him there for a few days because he makes me smile.

6 comments:

KelsyC said...

How sweet! You made me tear up a little.

Jenni said...

I definitely teared up! What a wonderful gift to you that his picture was in that particular spot and that you would find it exactly on the day you needed it.

Marie said...

God takes care of the tiniest details in our lives when we least expect it and knew just what you needed when you stumbled across that picture.

Just think, one day we will be reunited with our loved ones and they are in heaven with the angels waiting for us...no more suffering, no more hurt, nothing, but rejoicing with Jesus!

Have a blessed day Kelci-thanks for sharing that beautiful post.

jona said...

Oh Kelci, I'm so glad you had such a wonderful grandpa!! I love your candy sampling memory (I'm sure it's just one of many)!

I lost my grandpa 3 years ago and I cry at the drop of a hat when I think about him. I'm so blessed to have been loved so much by a wonderful person and I know you feel the same way.

JenW!~ said...

I can certainly relate to how you feel. I lost my Grandpa 4 months ago and not a day goes by that I don't think about him.

He was watching over you and that was his way of letting you know.

colourdujour said...

found your blog and enjoyed all the fabric love.
then. I found this post about grandpa.

this is the weekend(rodeo&parade in our little town) day that my Daddy passed away 25 years ago, so I feel a kindred spirit with you. I am sad that my children could never meet their gandfather. or that he could never get to know them.

aah memories. we just have to share them.